Finding my purpose

I have been searching for understanding, searching for the meaning of everything for years. I do not know if anyone really has it figured out, but I am so proud of my growth over the last 10 years or so. I took a crash course in personal growth for the last 5 years, I didn’t sign up for the course, it was part of God’s plan.

I know that I haven’t had an enlightened experience comparable to Buddha, I’m still growing and learning. I wish you could buy a cup of enlightenment! I’m fascinated with everything now, this learning process is truly amazing.

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The most amazing perspective can be found in suffering, and that is why I am so grateful for all of my experiences. I know we are all here for a reason, but what is that reason? There are so many quotes, blogs, books, talk shows, magazines, and of course the Bible. I wish God would have sent me a text, letter, email, drop a rock from the sky with the my purpose one word, my purpose. Being a mother is obviously a huge part of my purpose. However, I know other women that love their jobs that pays the bills, but still feel there is something bigger they are here for.

I didn’t get the rock or text with a purpose delivered, I had to do the dirty work myself. I say dirty work, because it was simply a difficult larger block of time than I would have liked it to be. However, I realized I experienced the things that I did so that I could figure out how to come out of the wreckage and sere others.

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Seems so simple, yet I am still stacking blocks trying to picture the end, middle, by the way the blog is the starting point that I am going with. Miracles follow movement! My goal, purpose, is to┬ástart a charity, foundation, non-profit, and serve others. I see things differently, and I started understanding that there are truly so many people suffering all around us, we don’t see it, don’t take the time to look, and/or assume we cannot do anything about it. I am guilty of it too, I’m far from perfect.

If you slow down and stop focusing on other things, your eyes open to so much around you. I had everything going wrong in life, and again details later. I could only see that everything was going wrong. I was still going through the motions, putting all my energy to giving my daughter a good life and a mom that was going to pretend come hell or high water that everything was perfectly fine.

I would have said that the way out was foggy, ambiguous, but the real issue was the way I looked at life was way too complicated. Focusing on my problems was not the problem, not living to serve others was what I needed to be doing. I started doing things that I had never thought to do before. Every situation became based on one idea, how can I help, how can I serve others?

We are all searching for happiness, or that is truly the most common answer when you ask people what they want in life. They want to be happy. Happiness is actually a choice, but I don’t want to go off a tangent in this post. Stop searching for happiness, stop focusing on the things you want, stop focusing on your problems, and start feeling grateful. We all truly have it better than we realize. I’m not telling you how to live, I’m sharing how I found a deeper meaning to life, happier than I have ever been.